Christmas spirit

So my tree and decorations are up, Christmas cards are written, almost all my presents are purchased and even a fair few have been handed out but I seem to be lacking in Christmas spirit this year.

I love Christmas, I'm one of those people who still has an advent calendar and wishes Santa was real. I always find some excuse to dress up Christmassy and consider tinsel to be the perfect accessory to any outfit during the month of December. This year however the yuletide period seems a little dull, don't get me wrong I'm looking forward to the day but just struggling to enjoy the build-up. I wonder is it to do with the fact many places have had their decorations up since November, or that in order to afford my presents I've been hunting bargains and good deals since early September, I wrote my cards over a month ago which I bought in the January sales at the beginning of the year. You see I wanted to be prepared as every year for as long as I can remember I've been ill in the run up to Christmas, last year in the 7 weeks before Christmas I spent 4 of them on 2 courses of IV antibiotics (last course finishing on the 23rd Dec) with a week of oral antibiotics between them. The year before I got out of hospital mid December and was ill again a week later, back into hospital in January, the year before that... well yeah, you get the picture. This year though I'm feeling fairly well, I'd made sure I was well prepared so I wouldn't get stressed when I got ill and still wasn't sorted but by spreading it all out I haven't got ill, I haven't been in germ ridden shops with people sneezing all over the last selection box and sadly I think that's sort of sanitised it all, maybe the mad rush up to Christmas is actually the fun part. I'm not talking doing Christmas shopping on Christmas Eve mad rush, just by this point, still having 1/2 my presents left to get, nothing wrapped and a pile of freshly written but unhanded out cards. Still I'd rather be healthier without that warm Christmas glow.

I know it's nothing to with no longer liking Christmas as I had some Christmas spirit for fake Christmas (one of my close friends works the ski season as a chalet girl so we always have a fake Christmas before she leaves). Come December 25th I'll be spending the day with some wonderful people, splitting the day between my family and my boyfriends (I'm very lucky that I have great in-laws who have the same sort of view of Christmas as my family, not religious, but see it as a day to spend with the people you love) and I am pretty sure that once I'm sat in a silly hat, eating and pulling crackers with the people who are most important to me in this world then I will be full of the joys of Christmas and really, when you think about it, that's the only day you actually need to have Christmas spirit!

(That said I'm currently watching 'The Muppets Christmas Carol' so by tomorrow I'll probably be wearing tinsel like a scarf and badly singing Christmas carols to random strangers! Haha.)